As a work in progress this is the most gentle and loving response to a God who says, “I made you for my delight, I love you and long to be in relationship with you… so much so that I paid the ultimate price. I died for our relationship.
We fight against that utter unbelievable almost inconceivable gift. We flee from the tension that comes in knowing we don’t deserve it. We hide in thinking, “I’m not worthy.”
At one level we aren’t- in the column of “did it right, sinless, earned the reward,” – we get a big fat Zero! But in the column of “Beloved, set apart, fearfuly and wonderfully made, God’s girl,” we get gold stars and 100% all the time!
Today’s post for She Reads Truth reminded me of the times I cross my name off the list, because I don’t think I am worthy, because I am caught looking at my failures and sin.
And then I realize I am worthy because God says I am as His precious child. You and I are worthy Jesus died so my name, so your name, would be on the list forever.. the list of forgiven, saved by the blood of Jesus.
It isn’t about earning, proving, doing… It is all about be-ing.
Being grateful, in need of forgiveness, and washed clean by what Jesus did, not what I do or don’t do.
Doesn’t that truth make you relax a bit ? My shoulders dropped as I wrote those words and a big sigh escaped my lips… just knowing that is restful.
The question is will I leave my name on the list and stop trying to earn my place there?
Scrambling to be “good” was my M.O. for a long time. It is exhausting and futile. because I failed at being perfect.
Can you relate?
We trick ourselves into thinking we can add something to the cross as payment, like Jesus’ blood wasn’t enough. We can’t add a thing! We can only receive.
Freedom comes when we stop trying and receive. That is all God asks of us.. To Believe and Receive. And then live from that place of belonging and forgiveness that will lead us to respond in love.
Are you tempted to cross your name off the list at times? If so, why?
How do you remind yourself of the truth- Believe and Receive are all God asks and stop striving to earn what is freely given?